Waiting’s the hardest part, isn’t it?
I’m a writer and a dreamer. A romantic and a realist. And, on top of that, impatient by nature. This is a dangerous combination as a young girl – dreaming of falling in love, romantic moments, my future husband, and forever. Between the ages of 10 and 20, those are the things that consumed my thoughts. What did God have planned for my future? Did I know my future husband, did I pass him on the road every day? How would we meet? What would our love story hold?
For me, though, my future husband and our love story was more than just something to dream about. It was something that I prayed about fervently. I prayed for purity and patience. I prayed for my future husband – wherever he was, that God would protect him, be with him, and give him a hug for me. The desire to be married has always been in my heart, and I have prayed about and prepared myself to be a wife.
I had plans. There was the natural way for things to fall into place. Graduate high school. Go to college. Fall in love. Graduate college. Get married. That’s the standard plan, right?
In November of 2008, I began to fall for Derrick Green and, in January 2009, we began dating. By this time, I had grown up a lot, learned a lot, experienced a lot. I had some regrets and, through the events of that winter, I had matured in who I was and in my relationship with the Author of my story.
Derrick and I make sense together. But, more than that, we are each other’s best friend, and we are passionate about each other. I get excited when he comes in the house, and he normally has to prepare himself as I run and jump in his arms. He appreciates me, respects me, and makes me laugh. At times, he’s the epitome of strong and silent, other times he’s silly and sarcastic. I thank God for him everyday.
So, here I am. I love this man. I am done with college. I am 22 years old. And God is using this season of my life in big ways to teach me.
“So, when are ya’ll going to get married?” People ask it all the time. So I will give you an answer. Keep reading (if you don’t feel like reading all of this – skip down the end – when the question is asked again).
Last year it was hard, I’ll admit it. I worked at a wedding dress shop and interned at a wedding venue. It consumed my thoughts. It was hard for Derrick too, because I assumed things, expected things. But, over time, I was able to enjoy each moment, appreciate all of the amazing blessings in my life and celebrate love stories with my friends.
I have many friends that I have been close to and have loved since elementary, middle, and high school. We used to dream together, share crushes, laugh into the early hours of the morning, and wonder where we’d be at 20. Here we are, and I truly enjoy being able to witness each of their lives; their love stories, their careers, their passions and talents. The beautiful women they’ve grown to be. God has blessed us to still be a part of each other’s lives.
I have been able to truly be happy with them, celebrate their love, and appreciate their love story. I have been in their weddings and made memories that warm my heart. And that is only by God’s grace. I think that who I used to be would struggle, have a hard time enjoying my friend’s wedding and marriages. But now I know that this is their time to celebrate their love and move forward in marriage. I will have my time, and then they will be there for me.
I have learned patience and peace. (Although it is something I have to pray for every day, because my flesh is impatient).
God’s plan is better than mine. He continues to pour out His blessings on me, though I don’t deserve them. And He has taught me to enjoy this season of my life. I am excited to see what the future holds – to see where my job goes, how I grow, to see what God has planned for Derrick’s career and how he will use his talent. I’m excited to see if and when we’ll get engaged and married. Excited see what the next scene holds.
But I have learned that my life is full today. I need to enjoy today. My today is full. This season of my life is blessed and wonderful, offering memories that will last a lifetime and allowing me to grow even more as a person.
So, when am I getting married? It’ll will happen when it’s supposed to. God has the perfect plan, a plan I trust and find peace in. He is the Author of this love story I’m living. I also respect Derrick’s decisions, his wisdom and his heart. I will enjoy my life today. But, when the day does come that I get to become a wife, it will be in God’s timing and I will be the happiest girl in the world.
(Sidenote: It doesn’t really get easier, I still desire to be married. It’s a daily struggle. But now I have peace about waiting.)
I’m a writer and a dreamer. A romantic and a realist. And, on top of that, impatient by nature. This is a dangerous combination as a young girl – dreaming of falling in love, romantic moments, my future husband, and forever. Between the ages of 10 and 20, those are the things that consumed my thoughts. What did God have planned for my future? Did I know my future husband, did I pass him on the road every day? How would we meet? What would our love story hold?
For me, though, my future husband and our love story was more than just something to dream about. It was something that I prayed about fervently. I prayed for purity and patience. I prayed for my future husband – wherever he was, that God would protect him, be with him, and give him a hug for me. The desire to be married has always been in my heart, and I have prayed about and prepared myself to be a wife.
I had plans. There was the natural way for things to fall into place. Graduate high school. Go to college. Fall in love. Graduate college. Get married. That’s the standard plan, right?
In November of 2008, I began to fall for Derrick Green and, in January 2009, we began dating. By this time, I had grown up a lot, learned a lot, experienced a lot. I had some regrets and, through the events of that winter, I had matured in who I was and in my relationship with the Author of my story.
Derrick and I make sense together. But, more than that, we are each other’s best friend, and we are passionate about each other. I get excited when he comes in the house, and he normally has to prepare himself as I run and jump in his arms. He appreciates me, respects me, and makes me laugh. At times, he’s the epitome of strong and silent, other times he’s silly and sarcastic. I thank God for him everyday.
So, here I am. I love this man. I am done with college. I am 22 years old. And God is using this season of my life in big ways to teach me.
Last year it was hard, I’ll admit it. I worked at a wedding dress shop and interned at a wedding venue. It consumed my thoughts. It was hard for Derrick too, because I assumed things, expected things. But, over time, I was able to enjoy each moment, appreciate all of the amazing blessings in my life and celebrate love stories with my friends.
I have many friends that I have been close to and have loved since elementary, middle, and high school. We used to dream together, share crushes, laugh into the early hours of the morning, and wonder where we’d be at 20. Here we are, and I truly enjoy being able to witness each of their lives; their love stories, their careers, their passions and talents. The beautiful women they’ve grown to be. God has blessed us to still be a part of each other’s lives.
I have been able to truly be happy with them, celebrate their love, and appreciate their love story. I have been in their weddings and made memories that warm my heart. And that is only by God’s grace. I think that who I used to be would struggle, have a hard time enjoying my friend’s wedding and marriages. But now I know that this is their time to celebrate their love and move forward in marriage. I will have my time, and then they will be there for me.
I have learned patience and peace. (Although it is something I have to pray for every day, because my flesh is impatient).
God’s plan is better than mine. He continues to pour out His blessings on me, though I don’t deserve them. And He has taught me to enjoy this season of my life. I am excited to see what the future holds – to see where my job goes, how I grow, to see what God has planned for Derrick’s career and how he will use his talent. I’m excited to see if and when we’ll get engaged and married. Excited see what the next scene holds.
But I have learned that my life is full today. I need to enjoy today. My today is full. This season of my life is blessed and wonderful, offering memories that will last a lifetime and allowing me to grow even more as a person.
God has the master plan. And His is so much better than mine. Whether you’re single and struggling,wondering where Mr. Right is and why God is making you wait, or you’ve found the right one and now you’re waiting, somewhat impatiently – know that God has a perfect olan. Are you preoccupied with the wondering, worrying, waiting? Let God handle all that. He’s writing your future and it’s going to be amazing. But never forget that today is pretty amazing too, and today holds opportunities you’ll never get back.
(Sidenote: It doesn’t really get easier, I still desire to be married. It’s a daily struggle. But now I have peace about waiting.)
“In his heart a man plans his course,
but the LORD determines his steps.”
but the LORD determines his steps.”
Proverbs 16:9
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